I've been in this space since 2017. What I teach now comes from getting all the way through it, not from reporting back while I'm still standing in the middle of it.
The real story
It wasn't a horror story on paper and there was no big obvious reason for it, just this low-level sadness I couldn't shake, a disconnect from myself I had no words for, and I got very good at seeming fine. I didn't come from religion and I wasn't raised with a framework for any of this, but I was always looking for something and I didn't know what.
In 2015 I went to Peru for ayahuasca ceremonies, not because I wanted to awaken but because I couldn't ignore the pull anymore. What happened there didn't heal me, it opened a door I couldn't get closed again, and a lot of suppressed stuff came up... but for the first time in my life I felt like maybe it was actually safe to be here.
That started a few years of going deep into chakras, energy work, past life readings, sound healing. I wasn't building a business, I was trying to learn how to be happy.
I wasn't trying to become a healer. I was just trying to survive my own life.
In 2017 I went to a mastermind retreat in Boston and I wasn't supposed to be working, it was just a small gathering. And then I sat down next to a woman named Lisa at a kitchen table and everything changed. I could feel her pain before she said a word. What happened in the next hour wasn't planned and it wasn't a method. She cried in ways she hadn't in decades. She'd spent $75,000 trying to get to what happened at that table. She said I blazed down walls she didn't even know were still there.
That moment wasn't the gift, it was confirmation of something that had been there the whole time, and after that people just started finding me.
And then life kept going, the way it does. A multi-million dollar crypto theft in 2020. My brother-in-law died in July 2021. My dad died that September. I was deep in grief and in the middle of it I found a collection of my dad's old spiritual books and went even deeper into it. Ego psychology, esoteric teachings, things that felt like they were written for me.
Meanwhile I was avoiding the one thing I should have been looking at the whole time. I was giving my power away and telling myself the spiritual side of me overrode the human side. It doesn't. I found that out. My marriage almost ended and my sense of self went with it for a while. The crash was real and what came out the other side wasn't a shinier version of me, just a more honest one.
In 2024 my husband and I packed up our two kids, our dog, and 16 bags and flew to Puerto Rico on one-way tickets. We stayed over two years, and this past August we came home to Louisiana, back to our own house, which turned out to be more of a full circle than I expected.
And this is the part I used to leave out, because when I first started telling this story I was still inside it and didn't have an ending yet. I do now. My marriage isn't something I manage anymore, it's good. I stopped treating motherhood like the thing I had to schedule around and I'm actually in it, and somewhere in there I started liking being a woman instead of just being a person who gets things done. I'm writing and making things again. Life is still a shit show and it's still magical, both at the same time, and that part hasn't changed... what changed is that I'm not gripping the wheel to get through it.
What this means for you
The women who find their way here have usually already done a lot. Inner child stuff, shadow work, journaling, card pulls, readings, all the practices that cracked something open at first and then at some point stopped moving anything the way they used to. And now they're sitting with this frustrating awareness of their own patterns that somehow isn't enough to stop them.
Y'all, I know that feeling, I was in it for years. All that insight and nothing changing, the self-awareness that just sat there and watched me do the same thing again. I understand it because I lived it, not because I read about it somewhere.
The tools were real. The way I was using them was avoidance with better branding.
What I teach now is the second awakening. Not the spiritual one, most of the women who find me already had that. The human one. The part where the self you left behind while you were busy ascending actually has to come into the life you're living. Not as another project or more work to do on yourself, just as the actual next part of this.
I'm clairsentient and claircognizant. I pull cards. I work with intuition and energy and I don't minimize any of that. And I also believe accountability is where everything actually turns, not as punishment or criticism but as the fairly uncomfortable truth that the answer to most of what we're stuck in sits closer to us than we want it to.
I got through it, and that's where I teach from now. Not from some finished place where nothing touches me, y'all know better than that, but from far enough out that I can see the whole shape of the thing and tell you where the turns are before you hit them.
If this is you
You didn't get here confused. You got here able to explain your own patterns in detail, out loud, with examples, and not one of those explanations has stopped a single one of them. So let's see how much of this I get right.
If you read that and got a little annoyed, y'all, that's usually the right sign. Being seen and being comfortable are two very different experiences and only one of them is useful to you right now.
It's seven questions and it takes about two minutes. What comes back is a specific name for the pattern that's been running you and what changes when it stops making your decisions.
Suspecting it and reading it back in plain language are two different things, and only one of them gives you something to work with.
For women who already know themselves well and can't get that knowledge to change anything. The second awakening, the human one.
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