I didn't figure it all out.
I just stopped pretending I had.
I've been in this space since 2017. What I teach now isn't from having it together. It's from finally being honest about how long I didn't.
I spent most of my early life carrying something I couldn't explain.
Not a horror story on paper. No big obvious reason. Just this low-level sadness I couldn't shake, a disconnect from myself I had no words for, and a very convincing performance of being fine. I didn't come from religion. I wasn't raised with a framework for any of this. But I was always looking for something and I didn't know what.
In 2015 I went to Peru for ayahuasca ceremonies. Not because I wanted to awaken. I just couldn't ignore the pull anymore. What happened there didn't heal me. It opened a door I couldn't close. Suppressed stuff surfaced. For the first time in my life I felt like maybe it was actually safe to be here.
That started a few years of going deep. Chakras, energy work, past life readings, sound healing. I wasn't building a business. I was trying to learn how to be happy.
"I wasn't trying to become a healer. I was just trying to survive my own life."
In 2017 I went to a mastermind retreat in Boston. I wasn't supposed to be working. It was just a quiet gathering. And then I sat down next to a woman named Lisa at a kitchen table and everything changed. I could feel her pain before she said a word. What happened in the next hour wasn't planned and it wasn't a method. She cried in ways she hadn't in decades. She'd spent $75,000 trying to get to what happened at that table. She said I blazed down walls she didn't even know were still there.
That moment wasn't the gift. It was the confirmation of something that had always been there. After that, people just started finding me.
And then life kept going, the way it does. A multi-million dollar crypto theft in 2020. My brother-in-law died in July 2021. My dad died that September. I was deep in grief and in the middle of it I found a collection of my dad's old spiritual books and went even deeper into the work. Ego psychology. Esoteric teachings. Things that felt like they were written for me.
Meanwhile I was doing the work I should have been doing the whole time. Giving my power away, convincing myself that the spiritual side of me overrode the human side. It doesn't. I found that out. My marriage almost ended. My sense of self went with it for a while. The crash was real and what came out the other side wasn't a shinier version of me. Just a more honest one.
In 2024 my husband and I packed up our two kids, our dog, and 16 bags and flew to Puerto Rico on one-way tickets. We're still here. Life is a shit show and it's magical. Both things are true at the same time and that's basically the whole premise of everything I do.
I'm not teaching from above it.
I'm teaching from inside it.
The women who find their way here have usually already done a lot. Inner child work. Shadow work. Journaling. Card pulls. Readings. Spiritual practices that cracked things open and then at some point stopped moving things the way they used to. And now they're sitting with this frustrating awareness of their own patterns that somehow isn't enough to stop them.
Y'all, I know that feeling. I lived in it for years. The insight without the change. The self-awareness that just watched me do the same things again. I understand it because I didn't read about it somewhere. I was in it.
The tools were real. The way I was using them was avoidance with better branding.
What I teach now is the second awakening. Not the spiritual one, most of the women who find me already had that. The human one. The part where the self you left behind while you were busy ascending actually has to come into the life you're living. Not as another project. Not as more work to do on yourself. Just as the actual next part of this.
I'm clairsentient and claircognizant. I pull cards. I work with intuition and energy and I don't minimize any of that. And I also believe accountability is the work. Not as punishment, not as criticism, just as the honest truth that the answer to most of what we're stuck in lives closer to us than we want it to. That's not a comfortable thing to sit with and it's the only thing that actually moves anything.
I teach from inside the experience. The mess is the credential. And I'm not interested in pretending otherwise.
You're in the right place
if any of this sounds familiar.
- You've done years of the work and can see your patterns clearly but still can't stop running them
- You feel in between versions of yourself and neither one fits right now
- Your life looks fine from the outside and something feels completely off
- The spiritual tools are real for you but they're not moving what needs to move
- You're tired of insight without anything actually changing in your body or your life
- You've done enough that you know exactly what I mean by spiritually bypassing yourself
- You're done being sold high vibe solutions that sit on a shelf
Not sure where you fit?
The quiz will tell you.
Seven questions. Free. It gives you a specific name for the pattern that's been running you and what it looks like when it stops.